Wake Up

Those green eyes
That usually show such love and devotion
They're filled with anger and exasperation.
There's a storm brewing in them
And I know it's coming for me,
But I can't seem to make myself move.
I know it's my fault,
Playing with fire
I knew it was possible,
But somehow never thought it would spark This.
I've spent so many nights running -
Racing down road after road
Leaking gasoline the whole way
And I just dropped a match.


You let the thunder break:
"Wake up,
I've been trying to save us!"
Pain rips across your face
As you stare into my eyes
Trying to get through to me.
The rain pours
As I shake my head,
Knowing there is no saving this,
But you'll die trying -
The weight of the world
Crushing you beneath its heel
As you try to cover me.
And I'll miss your body beside mine each night
Miss your easy smile and laughter each day
Miss your tenacity and grit
Guiding me through the dark times,
But this,
Us,
I can't keep you this way,
Can't keep hurting you to keep me comfortable.

So I stand in the downpour
My tears mixing with the rain
Feeling the thunder
Pounding alongside my heart
As I pray that this storm
Will wash my soul,
And yours,
Clean.