Darkened Love

I love you,
But I hate that I can't say
"I love you",
Because he ruined everything
That could possibly mean something.

I hate that I can't tell you
How beautiful you are,
Because you roll your eyes
And tell me you're nothing special. 

I hate that I can't tell you all of the
Romantic
Cheesy things
I'm supposed to be able to say,
That I want to say,
Because he said them too much,
Without meaning any of it,
And they're all just words now.

So instead,
I make you laugh,
Or I say you're mine,
And every once in awhile,
More and more when you're with me,
I see the smile I've always loved,
The unguarded one,
That's only given to me.
And I know that,
Somehow,
Despite it all,
We're going to be fine,
And I'm going to love you through
All of the ways he broke you.

And in the end it's just going to be us,
Standing there,
Looking back,
Wondering how something so beautiful,
Came from such darkness.